It’s one of the reasons I lost sympathy for her from here on out. Right here and now I can’t fault her for what she’s thinking, and I can even see how Syr’s response pushes her even further away and makes it harder for her to heal.

But it’s how she chooses to act from here on out that turns me against her.

Byron was her friend and subordinate. He very obviously wanted none of this. And this wasn’t a trap he blindly rushed into against her wishes or anything; she led him into it. She was so aware of this possibility that she had anti-berserk serum ON HER PERSON.

And yet she ends up hating him forever for her own failures leading to him being turned against his will.

Despite the fact that the cult is completely gone, that the anti-berserker serum works in every case that it wasn’t specifically enhanced by the very beings that brought it to Arkerra that now no longer exist on Arkerra.

She never ends up really accepting any blame for this outcome, or showing any kind of grief for the friend she had to kill.

And that’s really fucking cold, even after everything she’s been through here.

I know why she feels betrayed by Syr, and by extension, the rest of the surviving guild.

But for someone who was so desperate for approval from the group, and then got that approval, it really rubs me the wrong way that she could turn so completely against Byron because of HER OWN failures. The time when Byron acknowledged that she deserved the role of field leader over him, and was genuinely happy for her, should be/have been a defining happy moment of her life. And while Syr stopped believing in her, Byron never did. Not even after his second resurrection.

In the wake of this tragedy, Bandit chose to build herself back up based on her resentment, discarding her previous friendships so utterly that they may as well have not existed.